40 came in the night, while I slept.

I slept through midnight on the 4th. I was tired, after all.
I’d already had an adventuresome preview. Rewind to Friday. Spent the day lolling about. Until 7pm. Dinner time. Was supposed to meet my POC’s, Eh-net and her mom at a local eaterie. I waltz in doing the “Kramer” a few minutes past 7. The gang’s all there. But, I sense an additional life-form at the table. A cute girl. From the back, anyway. I get closer…a bit closer. Holy shit. It’s my sister. She’s sitting right there. Really.
Damn. They pulled it off. I’m not easily or willingly surprised. I hate surprises. Loathe being caught off guard. Even worse, to display emotionalism, especially in front of an audience. I prefer keeping my emotions under my rigid and tight reign. But it was out of my control. I was filled with joy and it leaked out of my eyes.
Where are those damn plumbers when you need ’em, eh?
My sister. Ffej came. She showed up for yet another important (to me) occasion. What a miracle.
What a miracle it is to have my sister back. An active participant in the life of me.
What on this earth did I ever do to deserve the gifts of family and friends that I have been given?
Nothing. Nada. Zip. Zero. Zilch.
It goes back to that grace thing.
Eh-net, who’s been in so much pain recently, came. I’ve known her for such a short amount of planet-time, that it’s almost surreal to think we could’ve formed such a bond. That she’d WANT to be there. For me.
I received so many calls on my birthday. Friends from miles away, friends from blocks away. Friends new and friends of old.
I’m relieved, in a sense, that 40 came while I slept.
Not enough water did I drink to account for all my joyous tears.
Thanks, y’all. Thanks for a wonderful life.
I couldn’t bear it here without you.
And 40 would be so much more of a struggle without you, the ropes that pull me up.

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