The hiatus among us.
My friend is in the hospital. She’s getting her gall bladder taken. Fine. Sure. This better be it. This better be the last of the Godamned bullshit. Enough already! Fuck, man. Let it go. Let her be. There’s no excuse for this travesty. Ah, but travesties avail. They permeate our skins and make us wonder why the fuck we were put here in the first place.
I want to take a hiatus from this blog. The blog which Eh-Net gifted me. No more writing. No more purging. No more obseqious ass kissing up to the powers that be. A strike of sorts. A picket line impenetrable.
Fair, you say. Fair, I say. Fair is a weather report. I don’t care. I want justice in this life. I want fair. I need fair. I thrive on fair.
Fair is what moves me through the day.
I’m not cut out for loyalty. I’m not a good friend. I’m afraid of the sticking around. But here I stand. The forces of this life make me stand glued in the face of sprinting far. But I don’t wanna. I want to take off. Run. I’m just not cut out for this sort of thing.
I’m not as brave as I look. I’m angry. I’m pissed off. I’m tantrum bound. I still believe in justice. I want to believe in fairness.
If God blesses everyone, then Eh-Net better be on the top of His friggin’ list.
She needs a miracle.
And for once…
…I have to admit that I’m just not it.